may sense naman siguro

Katahimikan.. Mabibigyan ka nito ng oras para mag-isip.
Ano pwedeng maisip? Marami! Pero karamihan sa maiisip ng tao ay katanungan..
90% tanong, 10% sagot, at sa 90% na katanungang yun, 2% lang ang nasasagot.
May 88% pa na dapat hanapan ng sagot. Ang dami naman……..

Binibigyan ka ng katahimikan ng pagkakataon & oras para hanapin ang mga kasagutan
sa mga tanong at habang unti-unting nahahanap ang mga kasagutan, lalatagan ka ng
katahimikan ng 2 option:

1. Kalimutan ang paghahanap sa mga sagot at gawin ang dating mga ginagawa;

2. Magbago.

Ikaw? Ano pipiliin mo sa dalawa? Ako? Magbago.

Mahirap magbago, oo, pero ‘yun ang mas makakabuti. Sabihin mong madali magbago,
at tatawagin kitang ipokrito. Walang madali sa pagbabago.

Hindi madaling talikuran ang nakasanayan, tama? Ang isang chain smoker,
kapag hindi nakapagyosi kahit isang araw lang, manginginig sila na para bang magkakaroon ng
malalang sakit. Ang alcoholic, pag hindi nabigyan ng isang shot sa isang araw, madaling uminit ang ulo
at nagiging bayolente.

Mahirap magbago. Pero kailangan ‘yun sa tao. Minsan, hinihingi ng pagkakataon ang agarang pagbabago ng isang tao, hindi para mahirapan siya, kundi para mapabuti siya at mga tao sa paligid niya.
At kadalasan, para din ito sa kaligayahan niya.

Haydhen Kho & Katrina Halili sex scandal [ My non sense whatnots ]

Have you seen this very controversial video? Sex scandal? I haven’t. Really!!! Swear!!  I don’t have to see the video, besides, I’m not into sex scandals and it’s too painful to watch those kinds of videos because I’m also a woman, lady or girl, whatever you call us the feminine side of the world. And to see men taking advantage of what is given to them whole-heartedly are like daggers piercing to my flesh.

I’ve been there [ not the sex video thingy ]. I’ve given everything that I could give to a man with love and devotion. And it’s painful to see the relationship fall apart because he wasn’t really into that word, LOVE. Okay, nuff about me… HAHA

This video has been too scandalous for one reason, the lady in the video, Ms. Katrina Halili, filed a case against Dr. Haydhen Kho. This controversy isn’t just revolving on exploitation of women but also drugs. Yes, drugs. Here are some conversations and clips of their statements. [ lemme juzz appllloooaaaddd iiiittt... HAHA ]

Okay, so I got bored on getting more clips. There’s a lot in youtube. But let me just get an article.

ABS CBN NEWS
A day after her emotional testimony at the Senate probe of the Hayden Kho sex videos, controversial actress Katrina Halili on Friday sued Kho’s mother for accusing her of using drugs. Halili, however, failed to take an actual drug test at the state’s anti-drug agency.

Halili first visited the Philippine Drug Enforcement Agency headquarters in Quezon City to deny allegations that she influenced Kho to use drugs. The actress, who was accompanied by her lawyers and road manager Omar Bortijas, had a closed-door meeting with PDEA Director General Dionisio Santiago. The dialogue lasted for nearly an hour.

PDEA officials said they quizzed Halili on allegations that she and Kho had used narcotics before filming themselves having sex. The sex videos have spread virally on the Internet and sparked a Senate investigation.

“Our goal was to find out the source of the drugs but [Halili] said the allegations are not true,” said Santiago after emerging from the meeting.

He said Bortijas also refuted allegations that he peddled ecstasy to showbiz personalities.

In his Senate testimony on Thursday, Kho revealed that he and Halili were high on drugs during their sexual encounter that was caught on video. He said the supplier of the drugs was an influential person and known to many celebrities.

“Yes, this guy is very, very powerful, he knows the generals who can have me killed anytime,” Kho said.

He said the alleged supplier could also be the one who bought the sex video files for P2 million and had them distributed.

Halili did not take a drug test at the PDEA as she had to leave right away to file a libel case against Kho’s mother, Irene, at the Quezon City Hall of Justice. The actress promised to undergo a drug test next week using a gaschromatograph mass spectrometer, which will require a urine and hair sample.

Hayden and his mother did not appear at the PDEA office on Friday despite an invitation from Santiago. The two, however, promised to cooperate  in the investigation.

After her visit to PDEA, Halili went straight to the Quezon City Hall of Justice to file the libel case against Mrs. Kho. She said Mrs. Kho’s claims are baseless and have damaged her reputation.

Halili thanked her fans who came out in droves to greet her outside the justice hall.

ABS-CBN tried to interview Mrs. Kho but she refused to comment, saying that she was in a middle of a family meeting.

Hayden ‘snubs’ NBI invite

Kho, who is at the center of the sex video scandal, failed to surface at the National Bureau of Investigation office in Manila after being invited by authorities to give his testimony over the sex scandal case.

According to his lawyer Herbert Hernane, Hayden refused to go to the NBI headquarters after receiving death threats.

Hernane instead submitted his client’s written testimony in relation to the case.

Dr. Mark Herbert Rosario, who was implicated to the spreading of the sex videos, also failed to appear at the NBI.

Damn, this issue is really giving me headaches. I got questions for you Mr. Kho.

  1. If Ms. Halili really did give you the drugs, why did you took it? You’re a doctor right? Then you should know better to refuse and not take the drug, right? Why?
  2. Why take videos of supposedly intimate moments?
  3. Do you think your reason for the videos are acceptable?
  4. Do you deserve this much of discrimination?

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Okay, I’m getting stupid. Since this controversy is pre-judged, I don’t have to say much.. But wait, I did said much. HAHA

Last Song Syndrome –> It’s still you that I <3

I’ve been into this song for quite some time. Funny that I want to move on and yet I’m still stuck on the same floor where he left me hanging. This song isn’t making me do what I have to, not that I’m mad about it, the song is great anyways. It’s good! Or at least I think it is.

“You said move on, where do I go?”

I’m asking the same question.. Where will I go? Still thinking… Where? I guess I just have to try stepping out of the floor that I’m stuck on to see where I’ll end up. Will it still be with you? Or will I end up bbeing alone? Or in someone’s arms?

I wish I end up with you.. It’s still you..

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still stuck on the same floor.

Bakit? Ano? Saan? Paano? </3

Bakit?  Ano? Saan? Paano? Ilang buwan na rin akong nagtatanong.
I’ve been very unconsolable.. They were trying to be nice, trying to help, trying to give me the comfort that I needed, but, I just can’t stop asking the same questions over and over again.

Bakit? Ano?

Bakit nagkaganito? Binigay ko lahat ng maibibigay ko, kahit mahirap kunin, dinala ko sa harap niya. Ginamit niya, saglit na katuwaan sa kanya. Titingin na lang ako sa makikita ko. Abuso. ‘Yun lang naman ‘yung ipinalit niya sa mga ginawa ko para sa kanya. Hindi naman dahil sa naghahanap ako ng kapalit sa mga binigay ko sa kanya. Aaminin ko, nung umpisa, panakip-butas lang siya, pero tumagal, akala ko totoo na, kasinungalingan din pala.

Ano bang ginawa ko para magkaganito lahat? May kulang pa ba? Nagkulang ba ko? Sabi nga ng mga kaibigan ko, sumobra na ko. Wala daw akong pagkukulang sa kanya. Sabi niya sorry, pero galing sa ilong apology niya, hindi ko matanggap ginawa niya. Sabi niya hindi ako nagkulang, totoo daw na sumobra ako. Ganoon ba ko kabait para i-overlook ko lahat ng kasinungalingan niya sa akin? Umpisa pa lang, alam ko ng may mangyayari sa likod ko. Inunahan ko na siya, sabi ko, gaguhin mo ko ng harapan. Hindi niya ginawa. Patalikod niya kong sinaksak, kung kelan seryoso na ko. Hindi na ko naglalaro. Ayoko ng maglaro. Nakakapagod kasi maglaro, paulit ulit lang mangyayari sa buhay ko kung maglalaro ako, pero…

Nasaktan lang ako ng higit pa sa inaakala ko. Sinaktan niya ko ng sobra sobra.

Sabi niya, “Akin na lang puso mo, para hindi ka na nasasaktan. Sinubukan kong maniwala. At tuluyan nga kong naniwala, at ngayon sobra kong nasasaktan. Sobra.. Saan ba ko nagkamali? Maliban sa pagkakabuo ng anak namin, saan ako nagkamali? Anong ginawa kong mali? Paano na toh? Paano ko magagawang ibigay sa anak ko ‘yung buong pamilya na dapat kikilalanin niya? Pinili niya babae niya, bahala na lang. Paano ko sisimulan ang buhay ko ulit? Saan ko sisimulan? Bahala na lang din.

Sorry na lang magagawa kong sabihin sa anak ko, hindi ko mabibigay ang kalahati ng pagkatao niya. Hindi niya makakasama gaya ng una kong inakala. Akala ko lang pala ‘yun. Kakayanin ko lahat para sa anak ko. Kung ang ama niya hindi siya kayang mahalin, ako kaya ko. Mahal na mahal ko anak ko. At hinding hindi ko hahayaang saktan siya ng kahit sino. Hindi niya mararamdaman ang sakit na nararamdaman ko ngayon. Kakayanin ko.. Para sa’yo anak.. Para sa’yo…

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RANTS RANTS RANTS

I’ve been out from the blogging world for quite some time, don’t you think? How many months have I’ve been missing the action? I cannot tell. A lot of things had happened. I worked for 2 months in a call center, I got pregnant, and so on. And tonight, I think, I’ll be back on blogging.

I’ve had had enough of what I’m feeling and I find the blogging world to be the last place to vent. But I guess, I ended up at the place that I don’t want to go to.

so let me just tell you a story. a true to life story.

STORY:

As what I said earlier, a lot of things happened, and here is the major part of THE happenings. I got pregnant. 3 months pregnant to be specific. But I guess that’s not really significant to you, is it? But it is to me.

I thought things would be great. I never thought that the very things that I don’t want to happen, did happen. I thought the father of my kid would take responsibility like what I’m doing. He said yes, but it doesn’t look that way.

When I knew I was pregnant, I told him immediately. I sent him a message. He didn’t reply. The next day, when I got off work, I went to his house. I woke him up, asked what would we do, he just said we’ll raise it together. My heart smiled.

Few days after, he asked me to abort it. I was shocked. I said “FINE!” but when I got off work I went straight to his house and begged him not to. To let me bear my child and bring him out. But before he agreed to me, I took lots of medicine in front of him. I don’t know if he got scared to see someone die in front of him to stop me.

Days after that, we fought each day. On and off. We were like light bulbs. Even light bulbs get tired, you know. How about me? Can’t I get tired too? And I did get tired. You know why? I really don’t know why men can’t be contented with one. I”M PREGNANT FOR HEAVEN’S SAKE and he’s still able to get another girl around him to fvck. Great.

I’m tired of his lies, I’m tired of his uncountable sorry. I’m so tired, but it hurts.

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