THE T0fu FVCKSTARR

When I was a kid, I only have 2 New Year’s resolution.

1. Have good grades so my mom will be proud.

*And I still aim for that even though I’m not in school ayt now. I’ll get good grades when I get back on track.*

2. Be a better me.

*Who doesn’t want to be a better person right? Of course everybody wants to be better. A better son/daughter, better student, better wife, better citizen, better leader, better God follower, etc.

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But that’s when I was still a little nasty girl. Now, I’m a devilish nasty bitch, I don’t have promises for myself. A friend of mine wanted me to stop taking unprescribed medications so I tried. I did!! It was so damn hard ‘cuse my system was screaming for it. But I became sober for weeks then when we saw each other last saturday, January 3 to be exact, I gave him my last stock. But I took one morphine first, but it seems he got irritated and took one yellow pill in the packet and I got a little pissed, just a little ’cause I know it was my fault, I took a yellow pill for myself. And threw the packet to the trash bin in the fast food chain that we were in. And said I will never take any unprescribed medications.

Is that a New Year’s resolution?

Now, I’m a bum. I’m a bum because of my stupidity. Oh well, we all are stupid in a way, so don’t look the other way hunny. I intend to go back to school this next school year, but before that, I’ll work my ass first. It’s hard job to be a bum without cash to spend you know. Haha! I’m doing this for myself and for my parents as well. I’m almost at age so I don’t think they’ll disapprove on that. Hehe! A better me.

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And just now, I realized, I have my short list New Year’s resolution after all. Haha!