I’ve been out from the blogging world for quite some time, don’t you think? How many months have I’ve been missing the action? I cannot tell. A lot of things had happened. I worked for 2 months in a call center, I got pregnant, and so on. And tonight, I think, I’ll be back on blogging.
I’ve had had enough of what I’m feeling and I find the blogging world to be the last place to vent. But I guess, I ended up at the place that I don’t want to go to.
so let me just tell you a story. a true to life story.
STORY:
As what I said earlier, a lot of things happened, and here is the major part of THE happenings. I got pregnant. 3 months pregnant to be specific. But I guess that’s not really significant to you, is it? But it is to me.
I thought things would be great. I never thought that the very things that I don’t want to happen, did happen. I thought the father of my kid would take responsibility like what I’m doing. He said yes, but it doesn’t look that way.
When I knew I was pregnant, I told him immediately. I sent him a message. He didn’t reply. The next day, when I got off work, I went to his house. I woke him up, asked what would we do, he just said we’ll raise it together. My heart smiled.
Few days after, he asked me to abort it. I was shocked. I said “FINE!” but when I got off work I went straight to his house and begged him not to. To let me bear my child and bring him out. But before he agreed to me, I took lots of medicine in front of him. I don’t know if he got scared to see someone die in front of him to stop me.
Days after that, we fought each day. On and off. We were like light bulbs. Even light bulbs get tired, you know. How about me? Can’t I get tired too? And I did get tired. You know why? I really don’t know why men can’t be contented with one. I”M PREGNANT FOR HEAVEN’S SAKE and he’s still able to get another girl around him to fvck. Great.
I’m tired of his lies, I’m tired of his uncountable sorry. I’m so tired, but it hurts.
